Chasing Certainty

you will never find your way
for as long as you run sideways
in the dark

you will never know the truth
until you live your truth

you cannot recognize the moment
the NOW
as long as your heart is left behind
stuck in a hurt-filled rut



you will get there though
because your spirit demands it

LET GO

you're not alone
but your demons should be

when u are finally free
you will know it

because nothing else will matter.

Look, now...

seperated at birth
that part of me remains
hidden from you
searching for me
and all that i could be
if it were true
that i couldnt love you
despite your clenched fist
and my open heart.

do u know who i am?
not like Will
but the way of the light
that illuminates the path
and connects ur dots
that eventually lead to me.

what has gone missing
for far too long
i try 2 complete
without competing
with the demons and dragons
of your fiery past.

look at me now!
who do you see?
or can u describe
how i came 2 be?

(I didn't think so...)

I miss my mama.

Tuneday the boy-gay

Tuneday
is here
Wednesday
where he can be gay
till Friday
all day
and on the seventh day
some will say
act like you did
on Monday.

Pavan at Jones Beach Sunset, 2009

My beautiful friend and fellow photographer Pavan.

Not because...but...

not because I AM
but because you were

not because i live
but because you fear

not because i fly
but because u creep
(or crept)

not because i see
but because you can't
(or won't)

not because of reality
but because of perception

not because of my light
but because of your shadow

not because i'm free
but because ur not

not because i live
but because u exist

not because my life is dictated by people who mean nothing to me
but because yours is

not because i've seen
but because you remembered

not because i'm "right"
but because I'm honest

not because i'm told
but because I believe

not because of you
but because of me.

Games and Rides...Good times at Coney Island, 2009

...continued from the Coney Island series, 2009.



Waiting on line for the Wonder Wheel.



Faceless couple in an embrace at the Wonder Wheel.



The Wonder Wheel, Coney Island.



Boys aboard the Polar Bear Express, a Coney Island favorite.




My favorite game in Coney Island since I was a kid. Aim and fire the water gun into the clowns mouth, which inflates the attached ballon. First one that pops wins. I like how the baby in the background is hanging in there too!



"Play it Your way"...the nerve-racking quarter game.



Big stuffed prizes await the winner of the Horse Race.



I remember riding these plastic motorcycles chasing and dogding on the moving screen.




Ambivalence about challenging the mechanical arm wrestler.



Freefall, free kids.




Father makes sure his son is prepared to fly.




They don't touch you, do they???", asked this tense woman as she got strapped in for a ride through the Coney Island Haunted House.

Coney Island Culture; Urban revitalization on its heels

No matter the view, an endless mix of people and culture come to Coney Island in search of fun or peace. I wonder what the vibe will be like once the Urban Revitalization is completed. Will the mix of culture continue to blend or will it sift out like flour in a sieve? What will the "new" Coney Island offer? And to whom? It remains to be seen, but in the meantime, we salvage what final moments of what will soon be considered "what used to be".